It’s life’s illusions I recall

On this difficult day, this particular day in June, I am feeling rather sad, Joni Mitchell songs are running through my head. It seems fitting somehow. Joni, I know how you felt when you wrote these words.

Both Sides Now:  by Joni Mitchell

Photo by Lily Mugford

Photo by Lily Mugford

view from the campsite at Ladies Creek

Photo by Lily Mugford

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds * that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
You leave ’em laughing when you go
And if you care,                       don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now 
From win and lose and still somehow 
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now 
From up and down, and still somehow 
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all.

This line from one of my favorite Joni Mitchell songs is my verse for the day.

The Gallery

I gave you all my pretty years 
Then we began to weather.

I pray “the sun will come out tomorrow” so I can sing a new song.


25 thoughts on “It’s life’s illusions I recall

  1. Funny you picked this song. In fact, I can relate to many things you have written on your blog. It was only a month ago that I was thinking of this very song, thinking about clouds and trying to figure out the meaning, thinking about life’s illusions. We can’t figure them out. Clouds are always changing. Life is always changing. Even King Solomon, the wisest man who ever lived, had a difficult time trying to figure out everything under the sun. For me, my focus always has to return to the Creator (God). Bring the Son under the sun, under the clouds – amongst the clouds and into our lonliness, into our questions and then if we listen long enough we may get some understanding along with some kind of assurance which tells us exactly what we need to know.

    When I think of the ferris wheel in the song, it reminds me of being that child.The chair rocks back and forth. We look over the edge and get butterflies in our tummy, then we turn away from the fear and look out into the horizon. At that moment we feel like we are free, flying in the clouds. The wheel spins (just like the wheel of ours lives) We don’t know when the wheel will stop. Just when we have become comfortable with the spinning ferris wheel, our chair gets closer to the ground. I remember as a child hoping that the ferris wheel would go around again and again. I did not want to get off. Life is like that. Eventually the ride comes to an end. So we lift the gate and exit the ride. We look up at the Father and tug at His hand. Daddy can we go on another ride.

    • Wonderful analogy. With the excitement of the inner child we all still have in our hearts, that is how I want to live this life. Each day a new adventure just waiting to be lived and enjoyed.

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